twas eating with dad today.
and made some slight progress.

we discussed about the food etc...
and how dad should not cook a meal that is for four when there are only two of us in the house.

then silence.

as i ate my rice and veg,
my eyes fluttered to the coconut lying on the table(in the same position just like one week ago)
*yawn n i picked up a coconut each and brought them home, apparently i havent eat mine-*

then it came into my mind
that i knew my dad no more than i know whats in that coconut..
or..
actually,
i knoe the insides of the coconut better than i understand my dad.

k, bad exaple
but seriously,
as i looked carefully at the man sitting in front of me,
i start to wonder if i had really known him for my entire 16 yrs.

i think i know my bro better than i know him..

"do u need this?" i waved a piece of black wire(which i think is used for his laptop) in front of his face.

silence.

i knew he heard me.
i swear.

" IS THIS YOURS??"

"hmn."


without even looking at me.

and guess what??
he made two calls to mum and george today,
and didnt even let me get to tok to them!

what is that??

first, he was talking to mum, then i was like waiting exictedly beside him,
hoping that he would pass me the phone or sth.
but no, he said" bye bye" and hung up.

then later in the night,
he called again.
georgie picked it up i guess.

then i was on phone with cao ling
and dad made up this excuse saying i was toking to caoling so he just hung up.

what the ...

i miss georgie.
i miss mummy.

i miss that day.
i miss u.

haha.
thnks to all who tried cheering me up.
lol. esp xm.
haha~
i know u will nvr read this.
but i really dunno why u said tt.
i really hope we still can remain as frens.
even though yes i admit we may not meant to be.

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